I Believe

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We all are different and not one of us are the same and I thank God for that… Our choices, (sins), beliefs in God and for some unbelief in Him is separating us..
I believe in God … I have a personal relationship with him through Christ … That’s me… Accept me or don’t that’s between He & I. Just like I talk about the people that I have a relationship with I will talk about God !!! He is the only reason I have made it this far…
I love love love Facebook … I love my new friends, old friends and excited that connections continue to grow each day via the Internet… I really hate that we can’t all just be friends and accept each other … Love, accept and forgive each other… I dislike that we have to unfriend so we can be ourselves… That words are misunderstood, sarcasm is taken as truth…
The topics in a newsfeed sometimes frustrates me…. Guns, pictures of abuse, political bashing, racist and religious rants on marriage/ gay issues and whatever else seems to come through the feed that has a rather negative tone…
Where I am in my life is … Happy Happy Happy… I only want positive… Because I battle enough within… Life has been difficult…
I believe that our God made us all different because how boring would it be if we were all the same… All one flavor… Boring right!!! I have been a Christian since Mother’s Day 1993 and I went head first into the rules part of Christianity… Not just the big Ten God gave us… The million other rules that we Christians read in the bible and take as law and beat each other up with… Not that Gods word is not our guide .. It is !!!
In my 20 years as a follower of Christ… I have been bound in legalism and at time Pride and there has also been a bit of judgement of others…

There are times of crisis of faith when you find out who you believe in, who you can trust, who really loves you, where acceptance comes from, go through a crisis and look around..
The ones beside you may just be the one who is gay, the one woman who has been married to many times to count. It just may be a ex-drug addict that invites you to stay with him and it may be pure and not with wrong motives.. The judgement of others is painful, many times folks don’t ask what truly happened and why your where you are today … That’s my story…
I am very grateful for the painful lessons, my finding out who God really is… Finding out that the list of rules I made for myself could have kept me from True Love; if I would not have trusted God and threw the rules aside for Grace…
I have spent my life trying to please others and to be accepted.. Never realizing the acceptance that I craved was within me… I held myself to a higher standard in my head.. I beat myself up over every lil mistake… Over every thought or attitude that was wrong … Still battle it also… I am learning that Loving me is the greatest gift to myself and to the world I can give.

I am learning what Grace truly is… What Love truly is..
It’s within… Inside your heart, in your mind… You gotta love yourself before you can ever truly Love..
God calls us to Love One Another… He does not say to reject one another… But that’s what we do…
We do not believe the same so your out… That’s what we do…
No not me … I have and will always be for Love… I am gonna keep Hope in my heart and chose to believe the best in others if I can !!! I battle at times … We all do …

We can love each other, accept each other, try to understand each other with compassion and empathy…
Do unto others, Love one another, lets love like Jesus loves… I am working on loving someone who I have struggled with for 44 years… Someone who needs my compassion, forgiveness and a little more grace than I have given to her in the past… ME… Guess what I am really tired of beating her down ….

Thinking out Loud …

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